had been trying so much to move on until I met Gad who made me realize how stupid I was for still sticking with Nicholas. It had been seven months of sunshine: he treated me like the lady I was. He spoilt me with so much attention and love. Gad had never raised his voice at me. Not in seven months. I'm sure the day he did would be the day he walked out of my life. We had quarreled countless times but our quarrels were settled in a way, in the end it felt funny. After each fight we got even closer but dude and I had not gone past kissing.
I would be a liar to say I wasn't attracted to him. He was too but I made the rules and broke them if I wanted more kissing and cuddling. I only needed to tell Gad what I wanted and Gad would be at my beck and call. So now what was wrong with me? Gad was the one who fed my emotions. He fed my every being. He made me happy. We weren't sexually involved and with all the running about I'd been doing, I felt so bad for denying him sex yet giving it willingly to Nicholas. Nicholas who saw me as nothing but a mop to be used to clean his sexual cravings. It didn't matter where I was, he just knew how to get it from me.
I needed deliverance from this demonic opium. He was so not good for me: he treated me badly yet I still shared my body with him. Why not Gad. Gad deserved it.... I had known him barely a year but would rather walk a mile with him than with Nicholas whom I had known for four years. Rich: yeah he thought he was. Arrogant, notorious, self centered, didn't respect women not even his own mother. What was I doing with him?
I snapped out of my filthy desire for him and broke our kiss. I had told Nancy I was going to get ice-cream so I had my yellow sling bag and Nicholas had driven off because he obviously wanted to finish what he had started .
'Stop the car Nicholas.
I'm not ready to sleep with you.'
Silly me! What was I doing sitting in his car in the first place?
The music in his car was so loud as he made his way to his house.
'Why did you kiss me then?'
'Nicholas......?
Must every kiss end the way you want it?'
'Yes because I want you.'
Nicholas had squeezed one of my boobs with his other hand whilst his other hand kept holding onto the steering wheel.
Nothing I did would make him turn around. We finally got to his place and the bully ordered me out of his car. When I refused, he left me in the car and went to let out his dogs. I'm sure the dogs knew there was a stranger around or maybe he had given them an order. They kept encircling the car and jumping. Nicholas came to open the car door to peer at me. That must have confirmed their suspicions, it sent them barking and trying to open the door till Nicholas got back. At this point I had no choice but to get inside the house. I didn't want to get bitten by dogs. Nicholas locked his his bedroom door once I got inside. He went away and came back after a while to finish what he had begun early on in the car. Yes, I resisted with every breath. The more I resisted, the stronger he became.
I still resisted when he undressed me and forcibly tried to have his way with me. Nicholas must have mistaken my resistance for foolishness.
'Stop fooling.'
He kept cautioning me. I still struggled with all of me. I resolved not to open my legs to a monster like him. Not again! No not even when I was in his territory. I owned my body. He didn't own it. I chose who to share it with, it was not his decision to make.
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Learnt a lot abt where wrong choices can lesd to from this, poor Vesta.
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